前途茫然?!

此时此刻的心情---糟！
原来这一种负担是那么的重，重得心头上感觉的刺痛！从小到大都不会是怎么出色的我，总会让身边的人担心和烦恼着。有时候会觉得自己的存在是否成为别人的困扰？还是他们不会了解我所做的一切？
没被看见的努力却遭到别人的践踏。这一种感受有谁能理解。是，我不聪明但我试着从两者之间找到一个平衡点。我做不到，但在过程里起码让我学习了很多。我有努力最求自己想要的，但请不要把我努力到一半的心血拿走。错过了一次，我真的不想再放弃这一次！我会慌、会怕、会难过、会哭....当我想到接下来的路我该如何选择，如果就这样放弃了，值得吗？至少也给我个机会，再次证明给你看！有时候不是不想说出口，只是不知如何开口，我心里的痛没人能理解，也不想说，因为我讨厌自己这个样子！累人、泪人！

六月份的我~

忙我下鄉的活动还想着可以稍微休息了，但其实不！我还得继续忙。不过我在想这不就是我想要的嘛！哈哈 :D 让自己忙，生活就会过的充实更有意义了不是吗？下乡后的再过几天我就去了青少年营和儿童营看看他们的表现，带动气氛还有分享。喜欢看着他们活泼可爱的样子，让我很怀念当初一踏进生活艺术这个大門大家庭。跟著老師的腳步到不同的地方去學習和吸取經驗。當了不少的志工回歸這社會，知道自己在過程中跌跌撞撞很多回才慢慢成長和改變。以前很执着著某件事、某個人，但現在的我可以說真的慢慢放下了。放下以前那幼稚的想法、幼稚的舉止。也許有一天我會再遇見你但那也只是個也許！慶幸我那麼堅強，因為時間和意義的活動冲淡了一切，也不用再每天胡思亂想著過去的＂如果＂和＂結果＂。
用真心去感謝曾經傷過你的人、騙你的人、罵你的人、打你的人、笑你的人、愛你的人、喜歡你的人、疼你的人.....因為他們才真正讓你體會到「人生」！
祝福你和你，大家都可以得到自己的幸福和快樂！哈哈 :D

这一站。休息！

终于终于可以让自己放假了！忙完了手头上所有的东西，这几个月星公主真的过得很充实。所以忽略了部落格。现在我回来了！可以继续我的分享啦。
先从5月份说起吧，这个月呢。我们全体社区服务团大专生都在忙着筹备一个非常有意义的活动。我们将去到麻坡筹办一个生活营给当地小孩。给育英华小的小学生4天3夜的生活营全部由我们包办。还要教导以及传授教育给当地的孩子！除此之外我们也必须领养义弟义妹。教导他们、爱惜他们、保护他们，要把他们当成是自己亲身的弟妹一样爱戴。在那领养仪式我们必须以抽签的方式进行。那感觉就好像在猜测我会生男孩还是女孩。结果我就抽中了两个义妹。很开心！就好像自己多了两个妹妹或女儿。哈哈哈😄 还蛮不错的经验！籌筹办整个活动的過程里又讓我學習也經歷了不一樣的考驗。可以在別人的身上看到了他們的好處來補償我自己的短處。要感謝所有在身邊支持與鼓勵的朋友和合作伙伴。因為你們的一句話、一個問好、一句關心就已經足夠了。讓我更有動力繼續往前衝！哈哈~😄辛苦大家了但留下的是別人拿不走的美好回憶，那一段一起并肩作战的日子！太棒了！

Wonderful day spending wif my darlings 

27/4 Friday,waiting for tis day coz going out wif darlings  as usual every Friday we still got dancing session,our group present to teach others team member to dance den playing all around...can feel tat our relationship become closer n closer!coz we play 100%,dance 100%,sing 100%...woohoo~it's really awesome!finish the dancing session went to Starbucks for 50% discount,we drank together,chilling for a while den start our journey~hahaha  we went to klang for a day trip...lol...my car full of laughter all the way frm subang to klang,funniest gang we are...hahaha  SS-ing n cam whoring in the car~
Dinner time at 88 steamboat,had a lot of fun wif my darlings~eat,eat & play,play & feed each other...awww~that's so sweet 
Well our happy hour time,went to I-city,took a lot picture,done a lot of funny things,play a lot of funniest stuffs,took a lot of videos n we done our mission impossible...hahaha 
Really had a lots of fun n happy spending the times wif my darlings...the times wasn't enuf for me,coz I really wanna spent more time wif darlings~but it's too late  I hope we still got another chance together~woohoo...love u all so muchieee~ 

Busy April

Hi guys,so long din update my blog edi as the title I'm totally busy on tis month n coming up next month coz tis few month we are so hardworking n busy to do the preparation b4 the community service!I can say I'm really happy n lucky to make tis choice,I change my college,start a new college life n my life become wonderful n colorful everyday~hahaha  my friends around me,my STACT Club n many more... I can feel all the love frm them & I will appreciate tis relationship forever  at least got ppl to care u,support u,giv u advise and so on...
Sometimes I really feel myself is the lucky one,lucky star  when I'm younger,I got a group of cousin playing around wif me.When I'm in primary school,I started to hav my own friends n my librarian friends.Well,when I'm in secondary school,I also hav my librarians group of friends n my YES!Club friends.When I started my college life I also got my Segi's group of friends...now change to Inti,my life is still full of friends around me...so friends,u all are so lovely to me,so important in my life!I love u guys forever 

16th of April

Its my big day...hahaha ^.^ coz is my birthday and also is my mum suffer day~1st nid to thank to my mum who born me out on tis day till now a 19th years old big gal...I appreciate n feel thankful for wat she gave to me,she is always my superwoman,busy frm the day to night,cook for us,feed us till we become a big gals n big boys,giv us all the best things,caring all of us and many more,I can only say mum sacrifice everything for u,and she will never ask for any reciprocation...see how grateful she is!!! 
Tis year my birthday is quite a special,hahaha  coz most of them earlier celebrate wif me...my STACT celebrate wif me on saturday den my family celebrate wif me on Sunday we ate Korean food at Ampang,awesome!  den Monday which is the real date for my birthday,celebrate in college wif my another classmates,coz she also same birthday wif me!wow  tis is call fate...hahaha~thank u for everyone wishes,I really feel so touch edi 
Den thx for ppl who treat me dessert,and wat u say to me is really surprise me edi,u had already bring me a big present~hahaha  den went to watch movie together,so the s 
Well,it's really an unforgettable birthday for me,thx for everyone around who love or hate me,who noe me or dunno me,who admire me or not...I jus wanna say thx for being a part of my life and bcoz of u,my life is colorful  love my big family,my Stact darling,my beloved friends,my dear....hahaha 

感动的一天

今天是我们下乡服务计划团的第二次 training...哈哈哈  好玩，好笑，好伤，好感动 早上7点多就到学校了，今天重大的任务呢就是团康组的我们必须带领全体筹委一起带动气氛和教跳舞。早上的精力还不错喔，很有ooomm 的感觉，因为我们下定决心要让别人对我们刮目相看。呵呵  一起吃了早餐聊了一会儿，我们就去集合了。听讲座，玩游戏，长这么大了很久没有人背我了！哈哈哈  感觉还蛮刺激的嘛！被高人背着，还要让他跑，还有一边寻找别人。好玩但也很恐怖！然后就到我和你一起教舞啦！默契的我们，没什么难得到我们！嘻嘻 Training 到了中午时间又一起吃午餐，和我的组长还蛮好聊的耶，因为她很亲切、大方、美丽又乐于助人....再回到training 的时候其实我整个人已经快累垮了，没有什么动力了，但还在逞强尽量做到最好。也许是昨天太夜睡了吧，搞得我整个头好晕，不舒服。无所谓啦，只是没之前那么high 了！到讲座环节，我其实已经不行了，结果到时间我要求早走因为还得赶去上班，结果银幕上突然一改，看见自己和妈咪的照片在上面并写上"祝我生日快乐，你的生日就是母亲的受难日" 啊~好感动喔，还有蛋糕、生日歌、礼物还有最亲爱的你们的祝福。这一切都在我省志不清的情况下发生，还要差一点让我落泪，你还说这是给我的惊喜。非常好！谢谢你，谢谢你们，爱我的每个人，生日还没到就先受到满满的祝福！感动  谢谢大家！